How was your life today
And why does it feel so weird to take the hint and stay away?
I wish you the best of luck today
Even if it's done from lightyears away
Even if I have more to live for nowadays
A piece of me is missing that I left at your place
Even if things are better for the two of us
I still can't tell the distance from the sun
Maybe you can guide me there one day
Just so I can guiltlessly see your face

I know I will always be waiting
So please don't be a stranger that I can't erase

Why do I feel sick at your success?
Is it because you'll freefall off the edge?
One which only exists in my head
Am I meant to let you go instead
And feel evermore distant from your friends?

Please don't let this be the end
Maybe writing one more song will let me see you once again
I know you'll talk to me when you're ready
But I can't tell how long I'll have to hold on to old memories
Am I meant to let you go instead and feel ever closer to the edge?
Am I meant to let you go instead and feel ever closer to the edge?

Why do I feel so used to it?
Has anything even really changed at all?
Stuck with an image inside my head
Of a you that sees me as impossible
Even knowing that the worst of you is dead
I know that you haven't yelled at me
But I know that I did something wrong
I don't want to be the enemy
I've been walking on eggshells all along
Just so I can make this work again

I'm so scared of what I'll do
There's so much I need to tell you
But in this theater of ash and smoke
With no agency over the screen
It seems that all I can do is watch myself destroy me and you

(Please don't leave me, I'm insane, I'm insane
I can't message you, not today, not today) (x4)
I'm so scared of what I'll do
There's so much I need to tell you
But in this theater of ash and smoke
With no agency over the screen
It seems that all I can do is watch myself destroy me and you

You dragged me out
But I don't wanna leave just yet
Don't pop the bubble, I wanna feel the ash and rubble bury my head
It's the birthplace of the me that I know
The music, the memories, the cancer, the dread
A de facto existence
The walls closed in, and it's pronounced dead
The placenta was warm
But it had to be punctured for me to take my first breath

I didn't even know, did I?
I didn't even know until she told me (x4)
(You're still alive, I'm still grieving
Ignorance was bliss, ignorance was shit
Proč to nevìm?)
(I love you and I'm sorry)

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Please say hi to your friends for me
For I burned those bridges pitifully
Why do you trust me?
Is it because you're plagued with misplaced sympathy?
You should hate me
I'm a freak that treated you horribly
I couldn't help when you cried to me
Yet you seem to be open to forgiving me
They haven't learned the real me
The friends of yours that still see the good in me
I don't know how you're okay with another song
It must feel so awkward

You must feel so horrible
Please forgive me
Even if you've done so already
I need to be on my knees so you'll see that I'm sorry
So you'll see that I'm sorry (x6)
(You had your back to me
To show your vulnerability
My sympathy was truly there, please trust me)

(Why are we familiar strangers?
Things have changed so much so fast) (x5)
If we met after our lives
I would want to feel fifteen
I want you to close the distance out
I just want to hug you for eternity
If we met after our lives
I would want to feel sixteen
I want you to tell me how to help
I just want to hug you for eternity
If we met after our lives
I'd want to feel seventeen
I want you to comfort me
I just want to hug you for eternity
If we met after our lives
I would want to feel eighteen
I want you to tell me how it felt
I just want to hug you for eternity
(Who am I now?)

You're like a sister to me
I want to be like you
You came so close
What would I do if I lost you?

If we met after our lives
I would want to feel fifteen
I want you to close the distance out
I just want to hug you for eternity
If we met after our lives
I would want to feel sixteen
I want you to tell me how to help
I just want to hug you for eternity
If we met after our lives
I'd want to feel seventeen
I want you to comfort me
I just want to hug you for eternity
If we met after our lives
I would want to feel eighteen
I want you to tell me how it felt
I just want to hug you for eternity